"and 20 cigarettes too please"

Lethargy - the quality or state of being drowsy and dull, listless and unenergetic, or indifferent and lazy; apathetic or sluggish inactivity

Thats how I feel without cigarettes. I hope this feeling passes soon because I dont know if I can stand it.

Had some weak moments last night. Its still tough to go without that after pizza cigarette.

Went to get petrol this morning and I could hear that little voice in the back of my head saying "and 20 cigarettes too please" . Had to get out of there quick.

I would murder for a cigarette

Day 2 was tough. I didn't get a chance to write about it though. I was down in my girlfriends trying to get cheered up. It didn't have a patch on day 3 though.

I miss the feeling of the smoke going down my throat. All the nicotine replacements in the world cant give me that.

The microtabs did work though. I was tempted once or twice but the tabs and a little willpower (and I only have a little) got me through.

It's tough sitting in work and watching my old smoking buddies heading outside for a cigarette but hopefully the weather will get colder and I won't feel so bad about not being out there. I sound like an advertisement for Nicorette.

Twas the night before quitting and all through the house...

...not a creature was stirring except for my mouse.

It's a decision that's long overdue but I've finally decided to quit smoking. Again.

I'm trying a new method this time. Something called microtabs. My previous cold turkey effort having resulted in a mere 12 hours smoke free. Including sleeping time.

So here I am on quitting eve and I'm lying awake thinking about how much I'm going to miss that first cigarette in the morning, the cigarette on the drive to work, the cigarette after meals (my personal favourite), the cigarette on the way home from work and all the little cigarettes in between without whom none of this would be possible.